It's late, I'm whiny.

Feeling very stressed out. I kind of wish something in my life would be sure and constant. There's something comforting with the known, even in self-inflicted disarray. I think that if I create my own chaos, at least it's my own doing, not of circumstance.

Meh.

I would give 5 years of my life for just an ounce of creativity.

I like my job, but...

...it would be better if it weren't for the fact that I have to deal with people every day. As a fast-food cashier, I picked an awesome job to develop that mentality.

Don't get me wrong, the other aspects of it are probably better than any other job I've ever had. All of my coworkers are nice, sincere people that actually give a shit about the people around them. It's a fast paced job, so I'm never really bored.

I just don't appreciate the condescending attitude I feel I'm getting from the customers. It might be all in my head, but if I make a simple mistake I believe that I'm just reiterating the mentality that fast food workers are stupid.

I'm not stupid, none of the people I work with are stupid, but the attitude I get is simple disrespect and that I'm a lesser being. I can't go and scream at them, I'M SMART. I GO TO A GOOD SCHOOL. I'M GOOD AT 3 DIMENSIONAL CALCULUS. I WILL BE AN ENGINEER ONE DAY.

I don't think berating a customer is part of the 2nd Mile Service.

Maybe I'm just using my job as an excuse for my low self-esteem and insecurities, and how each day when I wake up I die a little more inside.

The Caveat

[via Apartment Therapy]

I know everyone says they hate open kitchen shelves. Yes, they're hard to keep nice looking, if you cook a lot they would get grimy, etc.

But I love open shelves.

I don't have a lot of kitchen gadgets and probably won't accumulate many. I like to keep my flour and rice and whatnot in matching storage containers to keep them fresh (and to keep the damn ants out). It just being me, I don't have a lot of foodstuffs.

I just hate the closed off look of drawers and cabinets. Maybe I'm weird, but I have no reason to be so ashamed of my dishes to keep them locked behind pressboard laminated wood cabinets.

May I introduce...

Om nom nom!




Monsieur Fraise Baguette!

A delicious little strawberry bread in felt form! Freshly baked and ready to stick in your pocket for an afternoon snack.

Will be on Etsy, perhaps. If I can part with his cuteness...

Omg Omg Omg

[via technobob]

Holy balls, that's amazing. I would probably do something with Zelda, or retro Mario. How hard is it to order custom tiles? :)

I finally have an Etsy!

Well, I've had one for a while, but finally managed to put some stuff on it!



Check it:

Urg...

It's 3 AM, do you know where your tiredness is?


P.S. Very excited about the international bake-off tomorrow. Just need to get some cake pans and ingredients from the store tomorrow... MUAHAHAHAHA--*cough*

Murrrr

1. The economy is a big pile of shit.
2. Need to be able to relocate ANYWHERE to get a decent job.
3. Have hourly minimum wage job at the moment to sustain me until I graduate (one that requires working on holidays and weekends).
4. Will be moving several times until graduation.
   
5. Still have a year of college left. And the EIT test.

I picked an awesome time to meet an amazing person and have a trans-continental relationship. Even WikiHow didn't know how to make this work.

In lighter news, a picture of me being menaced by a giant paperclip: